The days of missing you ♥

I....

I'm Not Ok...

I Missing You Badly

I Want You Right Now

I Need You

I'm Fading Away Without You

I Feel So Empty Now

I Feel Nothing Now

I Cant Get Use To It Without You

I Hope To Hear The Phone Rang & Saw The Name Appear On My Phone Was Dear Calling

I Hope Thing Can Change

I Hope You're With Me Now

I Hope To Hug You To Slp

I Hope You Brought Dinner Back & Eat Together

I Hope To Bring You Everywhere I Go

I Haven Take Enough Picture With You

I Wanna Grow Old With You

I Wanna Go Oversea With You

I Hope To Relax With You

I Wanna Enjoy Every Moment With You

I Hope To Spending My Every Sec,Min,Hours With You

I Hope To See You Everyday

I Wanna Hold You All The Way To The Finish Point

I'll Always Be There For You

June Chia Han Han I LOVE YOU!!!

I'm S(Yr Sourtie)

You're all I ever wanted ;

我爱她!!

我很想爱她 (I Can't)

我很想把她留下 ( I Can't)

我很想说我的心里话 ( I Can't)

我很想深爱她 ( I Can't)

这是每个人都知道啊

But Everything Its Just Too Late!!!

You're all I ever wanted ;

My Wound Going To Take A Long Time To Recover!

22nd June 2009 I'll always remember this date in my heart i wont forget i'll always remind myself of this date i putted a new tattoo on my leg with this date too...i got alot of date to remember..i can feel the pain of the tattoo so the impact not really as big as my beloved mum passed away cuz when that time i put tattoo i dun feel the pain at all..i dunno y all those ppl love me so much leaving one by one which make me cant take it anymore i feel like myself is fading away when everyday goes by...i really cant feel myself anymore i feel like leaving this world so i dun need to face anything frm 2005 loves one leave one by one until now...2005 uncle passed away, 2007 grandpa passed away, 2008 mum passed away,2008 Aug Jamie Left me which i tot i can get a new start,2009 June Left me alone n forever dun contact liao...if so many ppl wanna leave me must as well i leave first at least i dun feel the pain anymore...I really sick of ppl leaving me one by one y not for those ppl wanna leave me leave all together so i wont need to suffer...i may look strong n i can take it but in fact is i CANT i keep dragging myself to live on each day i may do enjoy the moment with frenz all this but in my heart i already dunno when is my true laughter n true happy feeling..i dun wish to break down cuz i know i got thing need to do i still need to pray my mother all this even now i'm alone i also trying to get use to it...June i know we cant be together anymore i wont get to see u too i wont know how r u all this le...i'm not tat heartless like u..do u know that u r just like the last time me??? actually being heartless ppl dun really feel the pain is u yourself feel the pain..i being heartless B4 i know how it feel..i can dun even want kinship i can tell anyone u die is yr business morever is none of my business i can even say myself not fit to be a human at all last time...after thing happened i really change i can nv be as mean as last time...i also cant be nasty like last time i know last time how i treat u was my fault June u have right to hate me n treat me heartless cuz when i finally wake up n know actually i cant treat u this way cuz u r someone i love but ended up its too late i do admit ppl lose it den wake up n regretted which was nv can be mend anymore..so those ppl if u all still got the chance grad it dun let it fly away if not regretted the chance also wont come back again...

June,

I'm here to wish u happy birthday this year i wont be the one celebrate with u i hope u going to celebrate with the person u love n yr family i had already passed to u the present hope when u read the letter i wrote u know how i feel seriously i'm really sorry i know this sorry cant mean much to u le..i learning to let go my wound is forever there if there was a chance one day i wanna tell this now...My door forever open for u n i will always miss u n remember the way u dote me n the way u care of cuz those sweet feeling..i really wish to tell everyone i'm ok but i really not ok i dunno when u going to read my blog again but i'll just type in whatever n one day u can see it again...the num u used it b4 i wont change it so if one day u wanna find me there is still a way for u to find me...i'm always yr chubby chubby hubby hubby! I willing to wait for u to be back..if anyone dare to bully u or find u trouble i will always be there so u can just call me up no matter wat i will try all my best to help u..

Happy Bithday To You

Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday To June

Happy Birthday To You

I, I don't know why I miss you so much Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch You, you left me feeling high and dry With nothing, nothing but the queston why Yeah you, I guess you had another direction And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection If you call me today I'll say that I'm fine But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voiceIt's just a lie You knew what you had You still walked away leaving me in this mess My love for you is deep and meaningless You, you knew what you were doing to me And I, I guess I was too blind to see Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad But I'd do it again to relive what we had(Damn that's sad)There are many things left to remind me Of a love that I just can't leave behind me My love for you is deep and meaningless

I'm S(Sheryl)

You're all I ever wanted ;

Celinie here again :D

Today went Orchard with you. And the first time i saw you become like that. You must stay strong okay. Cannot let everything bring you down okay.

You're all I ever wanted ;

Hoho, I hack into Sheryl blogger :D

Celinie here to ask you cheer up man !!!! Dont emo or sad okay. Everyday you have to enjoy. Dont fill with sadness. Fill with all the joy man !!! Still have us to pei you all the way okay. You have to enjoy with us together lorr. Overseas, Chalet, Mahjong and Poker together soon okay :D CHEERS UP LARRR. LOVES & MISSES :D

You're all I ever wanted ;

Gutless

I'm gutless to told u everything i dun dare to do anything too..i feel so blank now a days hardly get to slp been thinking of wat wrong with us?? wat really happened between us???Last few day u gone missing again.. U wont get tired of doing this again??? but i'm glad that i finally know i changed cuz last time u goes missing i'll get crazy n damn fucking angry but this time round i dun feel the same anymore i just treat it that u wanna goes missing den go ahead cuz i'm nobody to stop u one fine day u'll return call ..waited until today i finally got yr reply ended up told me u did sms me that u going Malaysia ended up i din receive it at all..but i already told u b4 any important thing call me up n tell me dun sms..but u always trying to be stubborn dun want to do the right thing at the right time...seriously i feel that u not an human cuz u wont feel tired of doing all this rubbish again n again...June seriously WO HEN LEI LE!!! dun always try to do thing funny if i wasn't cool enough i really going to do something nasty to u again not that u nv try b4..but this time round i didnt n i dun even bother to scold u..i think u must be wondering how come i nv shout or scold u all this after u return call..here the reason: i'm tired of scolding.i'm tired of telling u,i'm tired of repeating the same thing over n over again,i'm tired of toking to u n I'M REALLY TIRED OF EVERYTHING THAT REPEATING NON-STOP...8 Years thing doesnt change at all u still keep doing the same thing to me izzit doing all this u r happy??? GOSH!!! I dunno wat on yr mind le...up to u to do whatever u want to..i can only choose to vent everything here..

I'm S(Sheryl)

You're all I ever wanted ;

Everlasting Pledge Let It Be Forgotten Let Laughter Be Light Pain Be Light Life Or Death Union Or Separation Not Up To Our Control Or Up To Our Desire Fallen Petals Wandering And Drifting Pledges And Promises Exhaustion Come Powerlessness Willing Deception Heart Breaks And Regret Love May End But Sorrows Are Eternal.....

I'm S(Sheryl Kwok)

You're all I ever wanted ;

失去才懂的难过

Think alot last night i found out this maybe really my fault for not listening to yr problem baby i'm sorry but i really had enough problem that u given me...when every time problem came i feel the fear i dun dare to face it or listen to it..cuz yr problem always make me goes crazy i had enough le so i tot of letting u go settle yourself better rather den i scolding u for nth i know i'm yr gf i must help out but sometime thing cannot just go yr own way i cant always be there to think for u settle for u..did this ever come a cross yr mind??? if one day i passed away who going to help u again??? yr parent doesnt know abt yr relationship plus how much thing yr parent can handle for u??? n if one day u told them yr problem they cant take it n fainted confirm u'll regret for life...we had grow up together for 8 years frm sweet 15 to now u r 24 n i'm 23 le we shld able to think n settle stuff ourselves some more u r older den me u shld able to think more den me how come i always the one who help u but not u help me??? maybe on yr mind i belong to the guy side so i shld do everything but even that the fact so wat??? not everything i can help i not a god i not fucking rich the world dun belong to me..helping u is within my limit i can do it i sure lend u my hand but each time yr problem grow bigger n bigger until i cannot take it i dun wish to listen to it anymore did u ever tot of my feeling??? can u be more considerate??? i'm also human i need thing which others ppl need it too i will get tired i will get enough of everything...maybe ppl going to say this since u got so much problem y must i still love u or chasing u back for wat??? but i cant becuz of problem n dun want u or maybe i too KPL i dunno wat the truth ans...baby i regretted for not begin there for u always now we no longer together le i also dunno how to chase back or doing anything....Baby i'm SORRY!!! 飞机已离开机场,妳选择了前往妳的方向,不再迷惘,忘了我们爱的过往,忘了我给妳的伤,学会坚强,能不能够再给我机会好好的爱妳,我会仔细的聆听,妳对我说的一言一语,我会学会去控制脾气不让妳心.对妳好好的去珍惜,请妳相信我的心还是爱妳...Baby I really will listen to u if there was a chance....

I'm S(Sourtie)

(Baby U're Always My Sweetie)

You're all I ever wanted ;

Izzit Everything Had To Come To The End???

Wo Bu Pei

Had been seriously asking myself whatever u said izzit true??? izzit everything had to be ended??? izzit i cant give u happiness anymore??? so many question pop out on my mind but seriously i got no ans at all...8 Years plus relationship izzit can say dun love mean dun love anymore??? actually today i whole day very sad i feel like crying but i be strong not to cry in front of you but now i back home i cant hold back my tears anymore...my heart had broken nth can mend now i cant be like last time so happy le...in fact my decision are right cuz i chosen not to do anything to chase u back today meet up with u in my heart totally one word can say was SAD!!!!! whatever u told me actually u r trying to hurt me once again...y every time is my fault??? i did nth wrong i care,i ask,i control all this is called report n i dun let u had freedom...i'm yr gf i got the right to ask u reached home all this anot cuz i care but ended up it become yr so call report WTH is this??? everything i did all u say was is my fault blame whatever u want i dunno wat on yr mind i dunno how to tok to u anymore..i already tried to give in the best to u in this relationship but ended up everything u push it to me by saying is all my fault fine i take it my fault den my fault lo...i dunno my heart going to bleed for how long??? i got no more energy to chase u back..just let be it whatever outcome izzit..thanks for all the lie n cheated those feeling i had for u..thanks for pushing everything to me too...now i will saying something all my frenz or those ppl read this blog JUNE GOT NTH WRONG EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT!!! i dunno how to love u anymore i dunno how to give u happiness le i cant be the first time Sheryl u know i cant be the right one for you le....maybe whatever u say was right!!! today i learn my lesson thru out this 8 years this is the biggest impact i got it..i fail to be a gf, i failed to be the right one for u,i failed to understand u,i failed to love u,i failed to care for u,i failed to give u happiness,i failed to give u sweetness,i failed not giving u enough freedom,i failed everything!!! can le ma??? June i admitted everything now fine for u already??? happy enough??? oh ya one more thing...even when u betrayed me so many time is also my fault...if not enough can tell me i will admit everything!!! no worries!

I'm S(Sheryl)

(Wo Bu Pei Ai Ni)

You're all I ever wanted ;

A Story

This post going to be a very long one i need to write it here to remember it n for baby to see it

09/10/2000

if i din remember wrongly this date was the first time we got to know each other frm net this is how thing start...

i was very curious abt lesbian so i went to IRC becuz there was a channel which for lesbian to chat how i got to know this channel i was invited by someone who i dunno so i went in to chat in that channel for few day so i got to know someone named as Jane u all shld know no one will use their real name in IRC so we chatted for awhile exchanged pic n num to keep in touch so after the chat we sms n tok on phone n i got to know her real name was June i also forgot wat name i told her only until months den she know my real name as Sheryl..on 12/10/2000 A new born relationship started yes i know we only know for three days getting into r/s abit fast but when we were young we dun care that much at first i tot oh get into r/s liao den can we meet up??? ended up she say cannot i have been asking her y?? meet up so difficult meh?? she told me lots of reason n excuse but in the end i still say ok dun meet first until one fine day after 8 months of the r/s we meet up for the first time...first thing come to my mind was huh can meet up liao ar??? hmmmm abit gan chiong la den i say orh ok lo meet up den so we meet up at bishan i have been carrying her pic with me when i going to sch or anywhere in the end u all know wat??? hahaha the person in the pic was not her!!! ok as just now i mention we did exchange pic but i also din send her the real pic so we was like..erm oh so the pic wasn't you la?? so both of us ans the same thing~ya la the person in the pic not me~ after 8 months den know we actually missed someone we dunno at all sound abit stupid right??? hahaha..ok first time meet up was like how come i got to know such a ger??? which keep scolding me siao char bo n i used my hp to knock on her head funny joker la both of us we meet up for hours den she gonna meet her frenz liao so i say ok i go home first cuz that time i was staying over my aunt house which at toa pa yao cuz sch holiday la so just went over to stay...after first meet up there was second third time n so on la...so i always met her at bishan i found out one thing after meet up session for few time...which it when her frenz come i had to leave i find it odd so i kept to myself first after that i asked her eh how come yr frenz come i had to leave lei??? she told me this oh..cuz i dun want my frenz to know we in r/s some more they dunno i les..of cuz i will believe n understand it..so i told her oh..ok lo den next time she come i leave lo...there wont be forever good thing come la..so bad thing came one day..which i was with baby at bishan enjoying with one of her frenz which baby already told her that we are in a r/s so as i mention there was one of her frenz came i had to leave finally this ger find someone to find trouble with me..of cuz i wont be that timid to let ppl bully so i ask her wat u want??? she say i diao her den i say u nv see me how u know i diao u??? say something fresh la kao...she got nth to say n she say something nasty which i cant remember it liao...i tot we going to fight liao ended up also didnt i shout at her u dare u come la i stand here wait for u timid baby go home drink yr mother milk fuck off bitch!!! den she left so on after this thing happen i got to know actually she was in r/s with this so call frenz la still got thing happen after that but 8 years thing wanna say also not that easy to post everything up...

We go thru alot of thing n the r/s last 8 years 3 months..i really tot we going to last forever we even intend to get married in aust i know some ppl cant take it as wat we are...but we two not going to care how ppl look at us so wat we r les??? in this world there is alot of les n gay...some of them even get married...but as i say good thing wont be forever finally there was alot of betray n alot of shit la not only she betray me i did it back to her too..this r/s frm bad to worse which we gonna end this r/s she cant stand me i cant stand too so i finally say break up which i mean it that time ended up now i regretted le...ok baby i know my temper suck i know i had alot of shortcoming i know u bear with it for a very long time but this is me la i will try to change...i think u need to change too u shld know what i saying la...r/s ended den frenz ask me huh how come u two break up??? i tell them about it wat happened,frenz say this time real one ar??? i say yes cuz that time i really very fed up until i dun this r/s le...now i want it back of cuz wont be that easy la...baby we got so much memories can u really put down??? can u say u dun love me anymore frm the bottom of yr heart??? can u say u hate me??? i think you n i had the ans in our heart...

Baby I really do love u,I really hope we can hand in hand walk together to the finish line!!!!!!!! i want our world to be the most beautiful with alot of colour and we can live in happily without any problem actually i miss you staying with me n slp beside me when u dream still can bite my finger -__- I miss the way u lead me to a sweet world n let me feel the love frm u i know when i with u i no need to fear abt anything cuz u'll protect me too and i miss the way u dote me and care for me... Baby I Really Need You By My Side!!! Baby My Promise To You Is Always There!!! I Wont Take Back My Promise From You!!! Baby yr birthday coming i wish i was the one who celebrate with u can i??? haizzz

I'm S (ToFu)

You're all I ever wanted ;