22nd June 2009 I'll always remember this date in my heart i wont forget i'll always remind myself of this date i putted a new tattoo on my leg with this date too...i got alot of date to remember..i can feel the pain of the tattoo so the impact not really as big as my beloved mum passed away cuz when that time i put tattoo i dun feel the pain at all..i dunno y all those ppl love me so much leaving one by one which make me cant take it anymore i feel like myself is fading away when everyday goes by...i really cant feel myself anymore i feel like leaving this world so i dun need to face anything frm 2005 loves one leave one by one until now...2005 uncle passed away, 2007 grandpa passed away, 2008 mum passed away,2008 Aug Jamie Left me which i tot i can get a new start,2009 June Left me alone n forever dun contact liao...if so many ppl wanna leave me must as well i leave first at least i dun feel the pain anymore...I really sick of ppl leaving me one by one y not for those ppl wanna leave me leave all together so i wont need to suffer...i may look strong n i can take it but in fact is i CANT i keep dragging myself to live on each day i may do enjoy the moment with frenz all this but in my heart i already dunno when is my true laughter n true happy feeling..i dun wish to break down cuz i know i got thing need to do i still need to pray my mother all this even now i'm alone i also trying to get use to it...June i know we cant be together anymore i wont get to see u too i wont know how r u all this le...i'm not tat heartless like u..do u know that u r just like the last time me??? actually being heartless ppl dun really feel the pain is u yourself feel the pain..i being heartless B4 i know how it feel..i can dun even want kinship i can tell anyone u die is yr business morever is none of my business i can even say myself not fit to be a human at all last time...after thing happened i really change i can nv be as mean as last time...i also cant be nasty like last time i know last time how i treat u was my fault June u have right to hate me n treat me heartless cuz when i finally wake up n know actually i cant treat u this way cuz u r someone i love but ended up its too late i do admit ppl lose it den wake up n regretted which was nv can be mend anymore..so those ppl if u all still got the chance grad it dun let it fly away if not regretted the chance also wont come back again...
June,
I'm here to wish u happy birthday this year i wont be the one celebrate with u i hope u going to celebrate with the person u love n yr family i had already passed to u the present hope when u read the letter i wrote u know how i feel seriously i'm really sorry i know this sorry cant mean much to u le..i learning to let go my wound is forever there if there was a chance one day i wanna tell this now...My door forever open for u n i will always miss u n remember the way u dote me n the way u care of cuz those sweet feeling..i really wish to tell everyone i'm ok but i really not ok i dunno when u going to read my blog again but i'll just type in whatever n one day u can see it again...the num u used it b4 i wont change it so if one day u wanna find me there is still a way for u to find me...i'm always yr chubby chubby hubby hubby! I willing to wait for u to be back..if anyone dare to bully u or find u trouble i will always be there so u can just call me up no matter wat i will try all my best to help u..
Happy Bithday To You
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To June
Happy Birthday To You
I, I don't know why I miss you so much Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch You, you left me feeling high and dry With nothing, nothing but the queston why Yeah you, I guess you had another direction And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection If you call me today I'll say that I'm fine But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voiceIt's just a lie You knew what you had You still walked away leaving me in this mess My love for you is deep and meaningless You, you knew what you were doing to me And I, I guess I was too blind to see Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad But I'd do it again to relive what we had(Damn that's sad)There are many things left to remind me Of a love that I just can't leave behind me My love for you is deep and meaningless
I'm S(Sheryl)
